2012

Well, so far, I actually hope this is the end.

This year is just going so incredibly badly that I don't know what to do with myself.  I am single, newly unemployed, my phone managed to get itself a virus, I'm skint and I just feel as though life is going no where.  I would apologise for whinging but at the end of the day (it gets dark) I tend to use this blog in order to vent my feelings of upset and annoyance at the world and therefore if you don't like it go read someone else's blog.

I tend not to rant at people in reality so therefore I'm going to rant on here.  I don't know what to do about my job, I just don't feel like I have the stamina to spend all that time trying to find another job again.  I don't want to end up spiralling in to a new and fun state of total depression but at the end of the day its not really something you can control.

Also, why is it that just as I get my head around cutting someone out of my life they find their way back in, and then when I decide to just keep them as a friend they bring back feelings that have gone and then just as I convince myself that perhaps they feel the same way too, they pull a 180.  Guys - do you have some sort of radar for when women are thinking about relationships?  OH! OH! Also, it is NOT acceptable to tell someone who you have slept with or who you know likes you, that you fancy their best friend.  NEVER, EVER, EVER acceptable.  No.

So, as it stands at the moment, I am beginning this year retreating back in to my own little world, and trying to remember that I should not trust anyone when it comes to matters of the heart. Even though it seems that people far less nice and (yes I'm gonna say it) attractive than I am manage to find themselves a life partner, clearly it is not meant for me.

2012, 23, 0.
Happy New Year.